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Divulgences from the Mind of a 10 year old Bully

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There she is again, walking towards me in her snowsuit, silently and certainly I approach, grab her by the arm and it’s off again to the snowbank, piled high on the side of the sidewalk – her only path home.

“Swirls for the Girls” the old witch in my head says.

It seemed like the frustrated young boy was going to continue his arrogance and obstinance on his own walk home from school until one night he was called up from watching cartoons in his suburban basement – there was a visitor, Valerie’s Dad.

The young boy took a seat with his parents and guest in the living room, her father on the couch – coffee or tea was offered but declined.

“Brad, do you know what this is about?” he asked

“Is it about Valerie?”

“Well it’s about her but it’s about you.  She’s afraid to go to school, then she’s afraid to go home.  She says you swing her around by her arm and push and throw her into snow-banks.  Is this true?”

“Yeah, sometimes I do that.  I don’t know why.  I hear voices saying to do it – Swirls for the Girls.  But nobody tells me to do it, nobody tells me it’s wrong.”

“Do you feel it’s wrong?”

“I guess I wouldn’t want someone doing that to me – That’s part of the golden rule.”

“So can I ask you to treat her with the golden rule? Respect her space walking home, if you want to say things to her there are other ways of expressing yourself than being violent.”

“I understand.”

And it never happened again, now 30 years later causes leading to the actions of the young boy, myself, are a hot topic.  You can’t go anywhere without hearing about “bullying”.  I would know what that is in a parapsychological framework as the ingression of identities into the mental framework of someone who would normally “live and let live.”  It may be the Force of the Jedi, turned to the Dark Side. So often it manifests itself as an abstract geneological pressure – so often the bullying conflict involves gender roles.

In my case, it was a boy who was just discovering orgasms, couldn’t tell his parents and hadn’t built up an experiential vocabulary in the real world (I secretly thought I was Steve Austin from the Six Million Dollar Man) to make a connection to his “Bionic Woman.”

Lee Majors is Steve Austin in The Six Million Dollar Man

Props to Oscar Goldman

A lot of things go on in the halo of awareness of a young child – The Family Guy’s “Stewie” is an explication of the almost zen juggling many children do “on the inside”.  Do adults do the same things? Perhaps not as much because the feel they can come to solvency for certain issues – except the pushing and scratching continue in our supposed “playgrounds.”

I never really learned how to express myself as a man.  I don’t really believe that anyone’s found the “right way” to do this – we use supplements like food, drugs, technologies and other fetish items – (GI Joe figures) in order to put together some structure that is more stable than a house of cards.

Jody Foster in Contact

Jody Foster in Contact

This structure is a life structure – almost like the machine Jody Foster felt the demiurgic pulsation to build in the movie Contact.

The force of desire to create these structures of expression are all about gender parity and indeed as old as the evolutionary teleologies behind the creation of expressive devices such as the Internet.

Tube Torus

What spins around us everyday in it’s semi-veiled mystery …

Looked at from a privileged vantage point in a larger “Bull Machine” which some may call the TubeTorus (ie: Taurus the Bull) we see a lot of things that would speak to the mind of a 10 year old boy – Swirls For The Girls.

Another obscure, some may say occult reading of the “Bull Machine” is in Hamlet’s Mill, a Key to the Milky Way which is (ostensibly) the Galaxy we are in (though we have to use eldritch interpolation to actually “see” what Galaxy we are in, add to that there may be other universes and galaxies where we get signals to “Bully” people or ourselves and these other Universes and Solar Systems may in fact not use Einsteinian Relativity.

Eraserhead's Engineer - The Dark Side of E

Though some may not be able to fathom it, things do actually have a meaning and the meaning is being shown here as what happens when you extract all vital fluids (mild of human kindness) from the urban megalopolis …

Back to the Idea that the Milk of “Human” kindness issues forth from the work of The Holy Cow of Engineering. (The satirical folly of man’s entropy in this field macabrely elucidated by the cuts of David Lynch’s “Train Engineer” in 1977s Eraserhead.

Be Here Now

Not present in my household, but then again a book involving transpersonal symmetry does have the capability to be everywhere at once…

Maybe I should get back to me and Valerie.  We never officially made up “mano-a-mano”, we didn’t talk much more. Didn’t date.  Didn’t end up going to high school together. The problems with expressing things has gotten better with myself in the following 10 years – doing ecstasy a few times helped me understand better the tautological interplay of hunter-hunted in the Orion Mythos, the punisher-victim of the mundanities of domesticity and the shortcut through 12-step programs for “people who had grown up with busy parents”.

Am I still a bully? I often hear Professor X’s words “With Great Power comes Great Responsibility.” – also with great experience comes with it a great desire to share, express but in a tap on the shoulder manner rather than throwing someone into a snowbank …

Lightning can strike twice ...I’m not Darth Vader, I wasn’t corrupted by power –

Blondes have more fun ...

Blondes have more fun – I am another yourself.

It was the Emperor (ahh another E person) who would have been the real bully in that Theocracy…

So can we sum up from this post that The Emperor, the young Jedi needs things to get his rocks off but wasn’t adequately prepared for his apprehension of power by 1970s media nor a folky Roman Catholic Church.

We may still see problems with bullying but is it a question of someone trying to push ideas or cultural nuances or is it someone trying to get someone to build a better cage for the animal in us?

Sekhmet - Famous Leonine leader of the Hathors

Ra’s Mom …

Perhaps the bull will be replaced by the Lion … I’d always licked – sorry – liked my Leonine side …

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